Shopping with Skinny Friends

You get invited to go shopping with your skinny friends.

Panic.

You try to make up an excuse.

"I'm too poor right now, sorry"

But you haven't seen your friend's in forever and decide to go anyway. Store after store you watch them try on clothes you desperately wish you could wear.

You go into brand name stores and check out the men's section to see if maybe you could find a hoody that fits you. The men's clothes are more expensive than the cute woman's clothes you want to wear, but you buy it anyway because you want to be like them.

Next stop: Lingerie. Oh God. You awkwardly walk around Victoria's secret empty handed while your friends bounce around with 3 double push up's over their arms and a hand full of thongs. For fun you look at the biggest size they carry. You realize that you would have had to sew two of them together to even make it around your body. You end up buying some body spray and lotion at the cash just so you can leave carrying that pink striped Victoria's secret bag too.

The ladies need fall boots! You get to the shoe store and take a look around. Your friends are grabbing the latest knee high boots and you're wondering how anyone in the world can squeeze their legs into them. Your friends zip them up effortlessly without even thinking about it. You realize that nothing in this store would fit you, so you casually make your way to a wall of purses at the back. You buy a purse so you don't have to leave the store empty handed.

(are you beginning to see why fat women have so many accessories?)

Lunch time! You head down to the food court. This is it, you're finally going to see what they eat to stay so skinny. They order whatever they want. Pizza, burgers, pop.

WTF

You order a small wrap, water, and a side salad because one bite of pizza makes you gain 5 lbs. Your friend's see that you aren't in a good mood and ask "what's wrong?". You say "nothing" and smile because you're embarrassed about everything you've encountered today. You're ashamed that you can't walk around the mall effortlessly in yoga pants, that you can't shop at the same stores your friend's shop at, and that you can't even buy a damn bra without going to a specialty store.

You go home and empty your shopping bags, adding to the many accessories and body sprays you already have, and vow to make a change. You promise yourself that you won't live like this any longer, and that you will lose weight.